Long we have been unmoved
Before us the great charlatan
Beats his drum and froths
Sheep bleating at his heels
Who holds the leash?
And we mired on Facebook
Just where he wants us
Wringing our uncertain hands
Arguing with enemy trolls
Where are the children?
No longer does the blood
Compel an averted gaze
Through phones we stare
To capture the sickness
Is honest vision frightening?
This must surely end
Rome will again fall
Hear the marching hoard
Which side shall prevail?
Sunday, February 17, 2019
Monday, May 07, 2018
Heart of my heart,
When do I get to hear your voice?
See you or
Touch you?
Never again.
Heart of my heart,
Forgive me for the scar upon you
You left a
Long path to follow.
Love of my life
I could not live up to your detachment
Unwelcome
Be out of sight
Heart of my heart
I can’t say you abandoned me
Despite love
Our paths were always separate
When do I get to hear your voice?
See you or
Touch you?
Never again.
Heart of my heart,
Forgive me for the scar upon you
You left a
Long path to follow.
Love of my life
I could not live up to your detachment
Unwelcome
Be out of sight
Heart of my heart
I can’t say you abandoned me
Despite love
Our paths were always separate
Thursday, August 22, 2013
Distance
The fire in my blood, do you feel it?
Somehow I must reach you, that you will
Reach to me.
Each millimetre of space
A vast distance to traverse, how then to
Become the explorer?
Somehow I must reach you, that you will
Reach to me.
Each millimetre of space
A vast distance to traverse, how then to
Become the explorer?
Monday, July 08, 2013
What Is To Be Exacted
What is to be exacted
standing in the place of privilege
Power to even request
Even when it is not a request
What price are you asking
What is the value to one
Who by the burning soul's
Desire is life itself the will
To become more than the body
Of light and sound when all words fail
What pound of flesh for your glimpse
Even as you hold the key to freedom
Offering as if there was a choice
Oh the longing to unlock the sweet bird
To let her wings cut the air and song finally be free
Some who saw said it was romantic
Others were shocked at the outright coercion
Would you have given your flesh to free your heart
Would you have held the key while he held your body to his
knowing all along what is to be exacted
standing in the place of privilege
Power to even request
Even when it is not a request
What price are you asking
What is the value to one
Who by the burning soul's
Desire is life itself the will
To become more than the body
Of light and sound when all words fail
What pound of flesh for your glimpse
Even as you hold the key to freedom
Offering as if there was a choice
Oh the longing to unlock the sweet bird
To let her wings cut the air and song finally be free
Some who saw said it was romantic
Others were shocked at the outright coercion
Would you have given your flesh to free your heart
Would you have held the key while he held your body to his
knowing all along what is to be exacted
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Death
Every day she visits him
At the cemetery she weeps at his grave
Touches her lips and presses
Her fingers to the tombstone
When we make love he may
Give us some room in our bed
But so quickly he takes it back
He is her last thought and first
Death is bigger than me
I cannot hope to be more than who I am
So I choose to live with her and him
Hoping time will diminish his spectre
The young man who called her mama
Towered so tall he had to duck under doors
I wish I could have known you
Now I only know you as loss and death
At the cemetery she weeps at his grave
Touches her lips and presses
Her fingers to the tombstone
When we make love he may
Give us some room in our bed
But so quickly he takes it back
He is her last thought and first
Death is bigger than me
I cannot hope to be more than who I am
So I choose to live with her and him
Hoping time will diminish his spectre
The young man who called her mama
Towered so tall he had to duck under doors
I wish I could have known you
Now I only know you as loss and death
Monday, March 05, 2012
Time
Perhaps it is that it has been one month
A measure of time
Something significant
Taking us beyond the casual
As if we were ever just casual
But today my heart is beating loudly
Fiercely insistent
Today I want to tell you everything
Hold your face in my hands
And tell you everything
Yes, there is time for all that
We have all the time
But today something in me is rushing
To the surface rushing to you
All that I have held back
Sits now in my chest insistent
And that long ago plea for someone
To be understood by and seen
Comes in your deep brown eyes
And all at once I want
To rush in like a wave
And all at once I want
to submerge and hide
Because of how you look at me
Unflinching in your gaze
And all my bigness
And all my smallness
Becomes inseparable
It is now a matter of time
Measured by my beating heart
A measure of time
Something significant
Taking us beyond the casual
As if we were ever just casual
But today my heart is beating loudly
Fiercely insistent
Today I want to tell you everything
Hold your face in my hands
And tell you everything
Yes, there is time for all that
We have all the time
But today something in me is rushing
To the surface rushing to you
All that I have held back
Sits now in my chest insistent
And that long ago plea for someone
To be understood by and seen
Comes in your deep brown eyes
And all at once I want
To rush in like a wave
And all at once I want
to submerge and hide
Because of how you look at me
Unflinching in your gaze
And all my bigness
And all my smallness
Becomes inseparable
It is now a matter of time
Measured by my beating heart
Monday, February 06, 2012
An Idea
See I have this idea
I want to wait
Take it slow, get to know you
I try to play it cool
Then you walk into the room
And all my ideas
Those well laid plans fall to pieces
If only you knew
That the simple sound of your voice
Or even seeing you from afar
Sets my pulse to quickening
Imagine what happens when you
Go out of your way to see me
Your smile alone
Leaves me shaking
The idea shattered by desire
Leaving only my beating heart
I want to wait
Take it slow, get to know you
I try to play it cool
Then you walk into the room
And all my ideas
Those well laid plans fall to pieces
If only you knew
That the simple sound of your voice
Or even seeing you from afar
Sets my pulse to quickening
Imagine what happens when you
Go out of your way to see me
Your smile alone
Leaves me shaking
The idea shattered by desire
Leaving only my beating heart
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
The Kiss
Early in the morning
When the sky is still grey
Before the sun has spread its light
Over 4th Avenue to Shine
In you windows and over your bed
That warm space we rest in
I in that grey space still notice
Between sleeping and waking
Comfort in the way your arm
Rests over my waist
Hand curled under my belly
You are shifting in your own
Early restlessness trying to hold sleep
As if holding me might bring you back there
But soon the waking day calls you
A gentle squeeze and single kiss
Planted quickly and playfully
Between my shoulder blades
And you are gone bounding
Out of our shared burrow
If I was not so in between the worlds
Of dreams and awareness I would have
Turned and swept you back
Close to me onto me
Kissed you gently deeply and strong
The way we used to
But you were already gone
Like a rabbit or deer onto the next thing
And I slip back into sleep
Listening to your fingers on the keyboard
Later when we parted
Saying goodbye at Port Authority
Our lips brushing the others cheek
I wanted to nuzzle into your neck
Lingering in that place
Between you ear and shoulder
Breathe you in whisper
I love you
Maybe the time for the kiss
And those words has passed
Save for the quick pecks and light brushing
But I have not forgotten
Those tender hours
And you are as beautiful now
As when I first saw you
Even when I hear you sigh
At your image in the mirror
Desire is still my companion
When we are close
Love is following you
Even as you bound away
When the sky is still grey
Before the sun has spread its light
Over 4th Avenue to Shine
In you windows and over your bed
That warm space we rest in
I in that grey space still notice
Between sleeping and waking
Comfort in the way your arm
Rests over my waist
Hand curled under my belly
You are shifting in your own
Early restlessness trying to hold sleep
As if holding me might bring you back there
But soon the waking day calls you
A gentle squeeze and single kiss
Planted quickly and playfully
Between my shoulder blades
And you are gone bounding
Out of our shared burrow
If I was not so in between the worlds
Of dreams and awareness I would have
Turned and swept you back
Close to me onto me
Kissed you gently deeply and strong
The way we used to
But you were already gone
Like a rabbit or deer onto the next thing
And I slip back into sleep
Listening to your fingers on the keyboard
Later when we parted
Saying goodbye at Port Authority
Our lips brushing the others cheek
I wanted to nuzzle into your neck
Lingering in that place
Between you ear and shoulder
Breathe you in whisper
I love you
Maybe the time for the kiss
And those words has passed
Save for the quick pecks and light brushing
But I have not forgotten
Those tender hours
And you are as beautiful now
As when I first saw you
Even when I hear you sigh
At your image in the mirror
Desire is still my companion
When we are close
Love is following you
Even as you bound away
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Unequal
I knew this coming in
Your need was great
Monumental in size
A mountain for me
To climb to reach you
And as great as my strength
And endurance may seem
It wanes in my own unmet needs
I am tired of the uphill battle
Always climbing to reach you
Would you not even gaze down
To see that I too am struggling
Crawling and clinging
On this slope of your indifference
Only aware when I reach you
You there perched
Me always climbing
I can not bear being so unequal
Being a mere afterthought
When I reach you breathless
I am ready to let go of this
Risking the fall to oblivion instead
That I no longer move upward
Would you begin your descent
Climbing down to reach me
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Lost
All the words we crafted
Carefully shared waiting
Each holding our breath
In trepidation hoping
For a response as blazing
And alive as our own heart
A passionate conversation
Unfolding until no
Longer could we wait in
Invisibility abandoned our
Anonymity in the journey to
Closing hours to seconds
A wildfire we became too
Hot to sustain in this
Form we could no longer
Hold each other in
Place our words lost amongst
The ashes after the flame
Carefully shared waiting
Each holding our breath
In trepidation hoping
For a response as blazing
And alive as our own heart
A passionate conversation
Unfolding until no
Longer could we wait in
Invisibility abandoned our
Anonymity in the journey to
Closing hours to seconds
A wildfire we became too
Hot to sustain in this
Form we could no longer
Hold each other in
Place our words lost amongst
The ashes after the flame
Monday, May 09, 2011
The Dream
Sunlight draws me out of the dream
Your voice and face still so vivid
We, the bookstore and the shopkeeper's question,
"What do you like the most about the city?"
Even in sleep I know
The company of you above all else
Is the best this city has to offer
Would you tell me as in the dream
"I told you do not love me." and turn away
I have never dared to say it
But my heart beating
With its full truth
We, the bookstore and the shopkeeper's question,
"What do you like the most about the city?"
Even in sleep I know
The company of you above all else
Is the best this city has to offer
Would you tell me as in the dream
"I told you do not love me." and turn away
I have never dared to say it
But my heart beating
With its full truth
Because it already lives there
In the dream, in this wakefulness
But here now pondering you
Still defended against me
But here now pondering you
Still defended against me
All the hurt of' family, lovers, the world
Heaped between us
Heaped between us
A place to rest your ambivalence
Or some wall I must climb to reach you
As if that mess will protect you
Unashamed dreamer offering affirmations
Aware of the hurt others have rained upon you
Like blows in some crazed boxing match
As if that mess will protect you
Unashamed dreamer offering affirmations
Aware of the hurt others have rained upon you
Like blows in some crazed boxing match
Aware too that you can hurt me
Are you willing to see my hands open
Are you willing to see my hands open
I am not defended, my heart is open
Come risk love and dare to dream
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
The Night Sky
Do not confuse my softness for lack of strength
I am as vast and deep as the night sky
Though at times reticent, willing to go along
You still must be an adventurer to touch me
The journey of unfathomable lifetimes exists here
Between points of light that demands bravery
Look closer, become an astronomer
I am the stars of the night sky, a celestial goddess
Deceivingly cool and dim at first glance
Often overshadowed by the bright sun
But over the ages many have charted their way
And whispered dreamy wishes under my gaze
I do not need to be the sun filling the sky
Let me bask instead in your light
Your flaming heart won't burn me
Nor your brilliance overwhelm
I am of the same substance burning at your core
I too can ignite your flesh for what are stars but distant suns
Let yourself patiently map the constellations of this body
You will a find a heat that rivals your own
Desire white-hot that has burned for aeons
In this heart lives the pure essence of the universe
Find your line of sight, an azimuth of understanding
Soft and quiet carries a deep strength and passion
I am as vast and deep as the night sky
Though at times reticent, willing to go along
You still must be an adventurer to touch me
The journey of unfathomable lifetimes exists here
Between points of light that demands bravery
Look closer, become an astronomer
I am the stars of the night sky, a celestial goddess
Deceivingly cool and dim at first glance
Often overshadowed by the bright sun
But over the ages many have charted their way
And whispered dreamy wishes under my gaze
I do not need to be the sun filling the sky
Let me bask instead in your light
Your flaming heart won't burn me
Nor your brilliance overwhelm
I am of the same substance burning at your core
I too can ignite your flesh for what are stars but distant suns
Let yourself patiently map the constellations of this body
You will a find a heat that rivals your own
Desire white-hot that has burned for aeons
In this heart lives the pure essence of the universe
Find your line of sight, an azimuth of understanding
Soft and quiet carries a deep strength and passion
Saturday, March 19, 2011
A Short Time
Already the need is too strong
With so short a time
Me trying to play it cool
My heart beating furiously
My breath suspended
Waiting for you to say yes
You not even knowing
I am in your hands
That with one word or better
The gaze of your brown eyes
I'd fall to my knees before you
Trying to let you know
With simple words
That masks a need stronger
Than my resolve to play it cool
Read between the lines
For the meaning goes far deeper
Beyond these lovely words
Where there is only breath and heart
Desire and strength
Our time may be short
But I will meet that gaze
With so short a time
Me trying to play it cool
My heart beating furiously
My breath suspended
Waiting for you to say yes
You not even knowing
I am in your hands
That with one word or better
The gaze of your brown eyes
I'd fall to my knees before you
Trying to let you know
With simple words
That masks a need stronger
Than my resolve to play it cool
Read between the lines
For the meaning goes far deeper
Beyond these lovely words
Where there is only breath and heart
Desire and strength
Our time may be short
But I will meet that gaze
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
The Woman Of Your Dreams
The woman of your dreams
walked into you life today
Someone else
has captured your fancy
And those words once reserved
to describe me are now for
Someone else
The woman of your dreams
has given me an unexpected gift
This heart
is now free to find new love
once reserved for you
Now mine again to nurture
for myself
walked into you life today
Someone else
has captured your fancy
And those words once reserved
to describe me are now for
Someone else
The woman of your dreams
has given me an unexpected gift
This heart
is now free to find new love
once reserved for you
Now mine again to nurture
for myself
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Waiting
As close as you are
I cannot reach you
Messages sent,
Heart laid open
You know the truth of it
The wings of my heart beat
And I wait
Trying to not
Hold my breath
You sitting with your soul
And I with mine
Trying to let silence fall
Yet here are these words
Trying to ease the waiting
Giving voice to my soul
Wishing to go deeper
Breathe, and I feel the fire
Ignited by you
Tell me you felt the spark
Tell me even now
You are burning
Tell me in your own language
And I would savour those words
To repeat them back to you
I want to tell you of this heart
That like a great bird
Beats for you
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Clearing
She takes the bedroom furniture
And the desk
I take the china from 1919
We used to have at large family gatherings
The family gets smaller
In your scrapbook are old newspaper clippings
You never got around to pasting them
Faces of long-dead relatives
Misty in my own childhood memories
You as a girl child
Small and tiny from the dis-ease
Like now In the hospital small and tiny
Struggling to breathe
But this time no iron lung
Only the hum of digital machines
I feel like a plunderer
Having what once resided In your apartment
That sister and I sit and tell you what we took
Your face betraying nothing
Or so you hope
Your material life scatters already
And still you exist In the flesh
Nursing home and the promise of one day
Maybe having food, any food, again
Still you are here for me to ask
Who are those faces in the newspaper clippings?
And can I find the time to paste
Together so you can see
Your life goes on
And the desk
I take the china from 1919
We used to have at large family gatherings
The family gets smaller
In your scrapbook are old newspaper clippings
You never got around to pasting them
Faces of long-dead relatives
Misty in my own childhood memories
You as a girl child
Small and tiny from the dis-ease
Like now In the hospital small and tiny
Struggling to breathe
But this time no iron lung
Only the hum of digital machines
I feel like a plunderer
Having what once resided In your apartment
That sister and I sit and tell you what we took
Your face betraying nothing
Or so you hope
Your material life scatters already
And still you exist In the flesh
Nursing home and the promise of one day
Maybe having food, any food, again
Still you are here for me to ask
Who are those faces in the newspaper clippings?
And can I find the time to paste
Together so you can see
Your life goes on
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Why You
How do I reach you
To know if it is worth the risk
Is there room in your already “we”
And what about the dog?
Why you
Why those telling eyes
Your words reached me
“The world has to change
It has to”
And the air left my lungs
Why you
Why that voice of conviction
My hands shook
The first time I called you
It was all worth that laugh
How you called me friend
Say again “hermana-amiga”
And I will know why
I want to know you
Everything about you
Close that distance
Become a fire in those eyes
Why is no longer the question
Only how
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
This Moment
You say there is
No forever
I only want
This moment
So when you lay
On my lap
And let my touch
Ease you to sleep
Working out that pain
Your breathing softer, easier
My hand
Trying to find its place
In this intimacy
I want to stroke your head
But know
That is not my place
I only want
This moment to linger
So I place my hand
On that shoulder
Letting my touch soften
And here we stay
Riding the rhythm of the car
As I watch you sleep
I only want
This moment
To say I love you
But that bump in the road
Brings you out of sleep
And all I want
That moment
Is gone
Monday, September 27, 2010
All I can do
The news came
That you were gone
I read those words
Three, four times over
I could not believe them
All I could do was scream “No!”
And cry
How many years now
When we sat at your table
Putting together Sinister Wisdom
Friends ever since
You let me into your life
Always included a note
That ended “with love”
In New Mexico
The praise you so deserved
For all the years
Dedicated yourself to us all
On your way
You found and hugged me
If only I knew
I wonder now if we failed
Too busy to notice
If there was something
Else we could all do
A letter, a call, any way
To remind you
That you were not alone
But you and your love
Had decided together
This was best
To go quietly
In your bed
And now all I can do
Is miss you and live
Friday, September 17, 2010
Bursting
Bursting the pods of my containment?
Bursting the pods of my containment…
Bursting the pods of my containment!
Bursting…pop! Scroooooch….ploooff…
The soft inner fluff lining the pod is set free.
My gentle side; compassion, love,
Even fear is set free.
It floats upon the breeze, set free!
It dances upon the currents, a fine cloud, set free
It hovers and moves, lingering for moments
Then it is dispersed on the wind – set free
All the love, compassion and fear set free!
Although it may be no longer seen,
No longer perceived by the senses,
It/I become part of the world – set free!
What remains?
A cracked broken shell, seeming discarded
But inside a tiny shining seed… The whole of potential
Waiting to be planted.
The earth is ready
I am ready
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Hope
I hold hope in my hand
It is tiny and fragile
Like a small bird newly born
So when fear steps in
I must resist the urge
To clench too tightly
To crush the hope
I need most then
Instead let my hands
My heart
My being
Be open
Hope to be realized
Must leave me
And enter the world
To grow its wings
Fly to the hand
The heart
The being
Of all
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
The News
Listening to the news
Irrelevant framed as important
Why did I need to know
A man in New Mexico
ate 47 burritos in one sitting
Never in the news
The family down my street
Does not have enough to eat
Nobody knows
The important has become irrelevant
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Solidness
We tell each other
Almost everything
But then we don’t
Too often we speak
In vagueness
When what we really need
Is concreteness, solidness
Like the way we’d feel
Pressed into each other
And I am up late every night
Because I can’t sleep
“Lots on my mind” I say
But really it’s you
On my mind
And I can feel
The world spinning
And I am spinning
Even as I make my way
To the desert
To see my lover of many years
I wish it were you
To climb mesas with
And gaze at the vastness of the sky
But instead we try to find
All the platitudes of
Friendship
Sisterhood
Always teetering on some edge
But never quite
Making that leap
I hold my breath still
Trying to keep
The heat of it inside me
Because you once told me
I needed to turn that page
And I did
But what you don’t know
Is that it is dog-eared
Creased forever
And every time that book,
my heart falls open
It is to that one page
That is you
Which I read and reread
Savouring its words
Its solidness and concreteness
As we keep speaking
In every way possible
To say but not say
I love you
Almost everything
But then we don’t
Too often we speak
In vagueness
When what we really need
Is concreteness, solidness
Like the way we’d feel
Pressed into each other
And I am up late every night
Because I can’t sleep
“Lots on my mind” I say
But really it’s you
On my mind
And I can feel
The world spinning
And I am spinning
Even as I make my way
To the desert
To see my lover of many years
I wish it were you
To climb mesas with
And gaze at the vastness of the sky
But instead we try to find
All the platitudes of
Friendship
Sisterhood
Always teetering on some edge
But never quite
Making that leap
I hold my breath still
Trying to keep
The heat of it inside me
Because you once told me
I needed to turn that page
And I did
But what you don’t know
Is that it is dog-eared
Creased forever
And every time that book,
my heart falls open
It is to that one page
That is you
Which I read and reread
Savouring its words
Its solidness and concreteness
As we keep speaking
In every way possible
To say but not say
I love you
Friday, June 04, 2010
The Long Night
My Heart, my body aches for you
I can feel this endless night
It stretches on
Quiet and dark
Holding me
On this long night
When you can’t sleep
Does your heart and body ache for me?
As the stillness and moonlight
Holds you
I hear my breath, the beating of my heart
Your name holding on my lips
Does your desire come as fiercely?
Stretch your self to me beloved
To your name whispered long into the night
I can feel this endless night
It stretches on
Quiet and dark
Holding me
On this long night
When you can’t sleep
Does your heart and body ache for me?
As the stillness and moonlight
Holds you
I hear my breath, the beating of my heart
Your name holding on my lips
Does your desire come as fiercely?
Stretch your self to me beloved
To your name whispered long into the night
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
Learning A Language
You are speaking
I feel myself pulled
Want to get closer
Become those sounds
Rolling in your mouth
Over tongue and lips
Maybe I will never
Be that close
But I feel the pull
To become those sounds
Feel them in my own mouth
Rolling over lips and tongue
Learning a language
One that makes me yearn
Finding the balance
Of fire and friendship
Resisting the pull
But lingering in those sounds
Each day I practice
Finding its place in my mouth
Perhaps one day
You will hear the sounds
And I shall be the pull
Drawing you closer
I feel myself pulled
Want to get closer
Become those sounds
Rolling in your mouth
Over tongue and lips
Maybe I will never
Be that close
But I feel the pull
To become those sounds
Feel them in my own mouth
Rolling over lips and tongue
Learning a language
One that makes me yearn
Finding the balance
Of fire and friendship
Resisting the pull
But lingering in those sounds
Each day I practice
Finding its place in my mouth
Perhaps one day
You will hear the sounds
And I shall be the pull
Drawing you closer
Monday, May 24, 2010
A Divergence
You, my mentor
Patiently worked through
the haze of my youth
You taught me how
to be tough, political, clear
Lessen the pain of life
We spoke the same language
rooted in growing-up hungry
We learned to work hard and share
You, my sister
Made a place for me to rest
when money was scarce
You filled my belly and my being
Fed, nourished, transformed
Around your table
we talked and laughed
Rooted in each other’s strength
Hard times lessened by the sharing
20 years my friend
Even as I went further into
my toughness and political leaning
Declared myself a dyke separatist
Railed, raged, revolted
against the men and their world
I saw that tolerant smirk on your face
but loved you anyway
Deep down we were still allies
Who were you?
When you announced
your marriage to your “wife”
I offered no congratulations
Got your house, 2 cars, vacations
You offered only criticism
of my life in the margins
Suddenly we had no language
Our hearts hard and closed
You, my betrayer
Still asking me when
will I give up
my rough around the edges life?
Used, tattered, worn
You want me to be ashamed
that I have food stamps
or despite my degree work in the dirt?
Share what little I have
For you, my regret
I let my principles
no matter how right
withhold the affirmation of your love
Instead I gave silence, contempt, judgement
Seeing you settle down
I thought you’d settled
for an easy life
One I could no longer share
Patiently worked through
the haze of my youth
You taught me how
to be tough, political, clear
Lessen the pain of life
We spoke the same language
rooted in growing-up hungry
We learned to work hard and share
You, my sister
Made a place for me to rest
when money was scarce
You filled my belly and my being
Fed, nourished, transformed
Around your table
we talked and laughed
Rooted in each other’s strength
Hard times lessened by the sharing
20 years my friend
Even as I went further into
my toughness and political leaning
Declared myself a dyke separatist
Railed, raged, revolted
against the men and their world
I saw that tolerant smirk on your face
but loved you anyway
Deep down we were still allies
Who were you?
When you announced
your marriage to your “wife”
I offered no congratulations
Got your house, 2 cars, vacations
You offered only criticism
of my life in the margins
Suddenly we had no language
Our hearts hard and closed
You, my betrayer
Still asking me when
will I give up
my rough around the edges life?
Used, tattered, worn
You want me to be ashamed
that I have food stamps
or despite my degree work in the dirt?
Share what little I have
For you, my regret
I let my principles
no matter how right
withhold the affirmation of your love
Instead I gave silence, contempt, judgement
Seeing you settle down
I thought you’d settled
for an easy life
One I could no longer share
Monday, April 19, 2010
Uncoiling
Days have been gloomy,
Grey and cool
But spring has brought the
Green in tiny
Uncoiling leaves
And that glimpse
Of sun and blue sky
Makes me smile despite myself
Your eyes dark, but not
The looming clouds
Spring having brought you here
Brown and smouldering
Uncoiling me inside
Just by your glance
Sea and earth in those eyes
My heart beats stronger inside myself
I hear you read the words
Carefully chosen
Hope like tiny green leaves from those words
Your voice uncoiling
Their lusciousness
Melting my heart like sugar
In spring rain
Letting the sweetness find me
Grey and cool
But spring has brought the
Green in tiny
Uncoiling leaves
And that glimpse
Of sun and blue sky
Makes me smile despite myself
Your eyes dark, but not
The looming clouds
Spring having brought you here
Brown and smouldering
Uncoiling me inside
Just by your glance
Sea and earth in those eyes
My heart beats stronger inside myself
I hear you read the words
Carefully chosen
Hope like tiny green leaves from those words
Your voice uncoiling
Their lusciousness
Melting my heart like sugar
In spring rain
Letting the sweetness find me
Spring Poem
Heart heals
hope quivers, still
nestled in the deep
seed-place of self
Self which cannot be
erased or quelled
though at times
it seems they
succeeded
But here today if just for
now are you
remembering the
sweetness willing to
endure the emptiness
Emerging from winter's
embrace you
unfurl and open
set your hand to work
as your heart heals
hope quivers, still
nestled in the deep
seed-place of self
Self which cannot be
erased or quelled
though at times
it seems they
succeeded
But here today if just for
now are you
remembering the
sweetness willing to
endure the emptiness
Emerging from winter's
embrace you
unfurl and open
set your hand to work
as your heart heals
Friday, March 26, 2010
The Letter
How do I write the words?
Let them flow out of me
Onto paper becoming
The letter you asked for
Becoming maybe more
Than we gave ourselves
The chance to be
No ordinary pen will do
I want to grasp
Dip it in ink
Feel the tip upon the paper
Feel the motion of each letter
The joy of each rounded curve
The sorrow of every dash
How to even begin
To address you, your name
Seems not quite enough
But can I now write
"My dearest, my beloved"
To let it be in words
How it once fell from my lips
You ask for a letter
But what I want to give
to you is my heart
Writing the words
Now makes it clear
Tells of endings
Tells of new beginnings
Let them flow out of me
Onto paper becoming
The letter you asked for
Becoming maybe more
Than we gave ourselves
The chance to be
No ordinary pen will do
I want to grasp
Dip it in ink
Feel the tip upon the paper
Feel the motion of each letter
The joy of each rounded curve
The sorrow of every dash
How to even begin
To address you, your name
Seems not quite enough
But can I now write
"My dearest, my beloved"
To let it be in words
How it once fell from my lips
You ask for a letter
But what I want to give
to you is my heart
Writing the words
Now makes it clear
Tells of endings
Tells of new beginnings
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Walking To The Edge
The edge calls
Calls you
Calls me
Approach, fall back
Approach again
Just so far, but
Not quite reaching the precipice
But I know
You want to stand
Teetering a little
On that edge
Daring yourself to
Look down
I know it because
I have dared myself as well
I have wished to stand
There with you
Feeling my breath suspended
As you take my hand
And we breathe
Out leaping
No fear in the falling
Together we could grow wings and fly
But I cannot
And you do not
Need that from me
So I will stand
At the bottom
Call to you
Arms outstretched
Waiting for you to trust and leap
I know you’ll never
Reach these waiting arms
But I will smile
As I see your shadow
Fall across me
You between earth and sky
Sing your name
As I watch you soar
Calls you
Calls me
Approach, fall back
Approach again
Just so far, but
Not quite reaching the precipice
But I know
You want to stand
Teetering a little
On that edge
Daring yourself to
Look down
I know it because
I have dared myself as well
I have wished to stand
There with you
Feeling my breath suspended
As you take my hand
And we breathe
Out leaping
No fear in the falling
Together we could grow wings and fly
But I cannot
And you do not
Need that from me
So I will stand
At the bottom
Call to you
Arms outstretched
Waiting for you to trust and leap
I know you’ll never
Reach these waiting arms
But I will smile
As I see your shadow
Fall across me
You between earth and sky
Sing your name
As I watch you soar
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